Hey guys! So I’m lucky enough to have a gym membership (and I’m so lucky it’s right by my house also), so today I went and did a workout. It was a swim workout, because that’s what I’m most comfortable with, and they have a nice pool.
I found this one on Pinterest:
I modified it a little bit for myself. I don’t like doing backstroke in a pool I’m not familiar with, so I did breast stroke instead.
I won’t lie, I was a little frustrated. As someone who used to swim competitively, I just wanted to be as good as I was. But the fact, is I’m not. And it will take me a while to get back to the point that I can do a whole 25 without having to breathe, or that I can perfectly master a flip turn, or that I can do anything that I could two years ago. And that’s okay. It’s okay to be a little bit frustrated.
Even though I was getting frustrated, I was also amazed. Amazed at what my body can do if I just put in some effort. Go me!
I decided today that I’d pick an outfit that doesn’t really fit me as well as I’d like it to and take a picture. That way I can see my progress in a different way than just the numbers on a scale. Non scale victories are so important to me!
Just so you know, this is a photo I’d *maybe* share on social media. Maybe.(Please ignore the broken shoes and awkward hair and slight panda eyes)
That is where I’m comfortable. Wearing baggy clothes that don’t show my stomach, standing at an angle that doesn’t show all of the things I hate, etc.
Here is what I’m posting here:(Ignore the wet spots, it was right after getting out of the pool)
I. Hate. This. Picture.
I hate how I look. I hate how big my stomach and thighs are. I hate that this shirt that fit not too long ago is now a struggle to get on and off. I hate that the shorts are so tight and expose so much that I don’t like.
But I’m going to improve. I’m going to get better. This outfit is going to fit – actually it’s going to be too small. And I can’t wait for that.